Chris cornell takes me back to a time when life was براسها حظ

Sep.19 (الدنيا صغيرة)

I can't help but think that our roads might take us down different phases
Don't wanna complicate the rhythm that we got but I'm speechless
When everything's so pure, can it be aimless?
Painless?

Lost in the blue
They don't love me like you do
Those chills that I knew
They were nothing without you
And everyone else

September 19th:
It's been over a year and a half since I last apologized to you.
That was the first and last time I apologized to myself instead.

I couldn't tell you that I had to live with your presence, that I confronted my denial, and that I made amends for losing you in the most foolish way possible.

I couldn't tell you that I'm doing very well. I've rebuilt my being several times. I'm doing what I love and steadily achieving my dreams.

I may seem like the lonely one immersed in work, but I live my prime surrounded by my creations, challenging fate to bring someone who can give me more than you did three years ago.

You said that "the last time i saw you برمضان العام.
I really don't know who you saw back then.
It wasn't me. My mind and awareness were elsewhere.

Unspoken words will never reach their destination.
But this is where they should be.

هاي منو ديحط لايكات we're trying to be emotional here

And so long
No one will be here to save you
And no one will be here to let you know

Quietly still, in a lie

I am uncertain whether they are my new friends or if they are simply another lesson and warning.
It has been long time since I have communicated with someone to this much. Are they harmless?
I am not yet aware of my limitations, and I have encountered barriers
Should I continue to be nice to them? Am I even being nice to them?
It's as if I am filled with "Ignorance and uncertainty."
Should I wear a mask of perfection or show who I really am?
Am I afraid of their closeness? Are they close? What is closeness?